I'm not myself ...

Right now ... I feel really bad ... sad of some reason ... I have those moments in my life when I think on what could happened if I did something right when I did that something wrong ... me: if I did wrong ... how could I know if it's right??? ....
I am confused ... by myself ... sometimes I really hate my live and sometimes I love it ... I wish I had my brothers bassbox (or whatever It's called) so I could drain my sorrows and screams in music from The GazettE and seremedy .... love u guys ... u havw made my life so much better .... but I wish you knew ....<3 ...